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The Vow

It’s funny but every time I have time to myself my first reaction is to feel a little lonely – but how can I be? I look around my room and see the smiling faces of all the people who I deeply love, who are in my life with all their light and their love.

A song comes on the radio and the line in the chorus sticks out at me. “So who’s going to watch you die?” I burst in to tears thinking “a whole room of people”. I think most of my friends would show up to celebrate my life, no tears, just love and appreciation.

It honestly is a comforting, yet invigorating thought that I know I am living my life in a way which makes me proud. I know I deeply love everyone in my life and never mean to harm a soul.

Earlier today, waiting for my lunch order to take home with me, I was sitting in one of my favorite restaurants, Au Lac. Every time I walk in there I seem to melt in to that peaceful place in my heart. The head chef, a Buddhist monk, who has taken a vow of silence waves hello and asks if I want something to drink while I wait. (Remember, he doesn’t speak, so it’s so beautiful that he can communicate without words). He brings me tea, even though I say I’m okay and I begin to sip on such a delicious tea I am almost taken aback. I watch our Culinary expert monk surveying the restaurant, making sure the ‘clientele’ are satisfied, and I think ‘how amazing is it to bring such serenity to those around you simply by your way of being.

I took a vow right then – to work on becoming that type of person myself. I know I am the calm energy for a lot of my friends, but I want to be that way all the time, even for myself. And honestly, wouldn’t it be an amazing world if we all took that vow? We all vow to put everyone around us at ease? No more stress or suffering, simply a global community working together to become successful and content – not only individually, but as a whole.


December 17, 2008 - NV

posted by Natalie Vartanian @ 7:53 PM