Forgotten Passion
As the beat pulses on,
as I jump and twist and sway,
I pause for a second and think,
“Now, THIS is ecstasy.”
To dance with complete abandon,
forgetting all worries and cares,
takes me away to another place.
I get out of my head and in to every sensation.
That feeling of possession is what I desire.
Soon as the music starts I lose all control,
succumbing to its every whim.
I miss craving that rush;
that adrenaline coursing through every cell of my body.
Why do I keep neglecting this passion of mine?
I realize a truth I can deny no longer;
every time I hear the music vibrating in my soul,
I fall in love all over again.
September 11, 2006 - NV
The Hidden Path
“my heart has always been a lonely hunter"
and i have always believed it to be so
finding comfort from strangers, family and friends
on a path, on a journey, without a clear view of the end
feeling both reassurance and loneliness in the solitude
confusion is the recurring theme for my many moods
on the hunt for days on end
looking for the way my heart can mend
suddenly, a single ray of sunshine breaks through the clouds
wanting so desperately to believe, i still experience doubt
it appears a ghost, a mirage, has come into view
could you be the one to heal my wounds
to lift me up, to make me new?
September 2005 - NV
Reverence*
As I come in to my own: my own being, my self, my soul, I realize that my “religion” these days is that of Nature and the circular rhythm of the Universe. I am completely content to be among the birds, the crickets, the trees and the mountains. I embrace the idea of Reverence towards the Earth, Life, and every single human being in it, as we are all connected somehow.
People see in me a tranquility that I directly attribute to my love of nature and feeling more and more at home amongst it. It brings me a feeling of peace and centeredness, as well as a wisdom beyond my lifetime. I know I am walking on the right path because I am living a life that I can be proud of. I feel so much more love, happiness and harmony.
There is a certain amount of self-actualization that needs to be attained by most. Us human beings do not have to act the way we do; the way we rape, plunder and pillage our ‘home’ and all of the inhabitants in it. I cannot fathom where this feeling of entitlement and lust for power came from? The destructive nature of humans strips away the very sacredness of Life itself. If the path of peace, compassion and understanding is crazy, so be it. To me, it is the only path that makes any sense.
My plan is to personally pay homage to all of the wonders on this planet, from the rain forests to the deserts, mountain tops to the seas. There is an overwhelming enlightenment I always feel on my travels/voyages that I wish everyone to experience. To see the naked beauty on this Earth is like discovering a hidden work of art. Once you lay eyes on it, it takes your breath away and can only invoke but one thing, Reverence.
*Inspired by reading the chapter titled Reverence in The Seat of the Soul, by Gary Zukav, June 21, 06.
